-7.6 pounds. all was worth it. we will see tomorrow. yesterday was great to be eating clean again. feeling better. not like i am going to die.

Finally. Today is the first day of the vlcd. I am so looking forward to feeling good again.

last day of imploding. tomorrow is vlcd. today is day 2 of injections. really feel terrible.

i am going to explode

bloading

i wonder if anyone has ever had a heart attack from loading. i had to take advil to relieve my headache from the sugar. i wish i could get a tattoo to remind me of this awful feeling so i may never return again.

I think I have loaded my whole life. this is how I used to eat. No wonder. I hate loading. i hope to remember how awful I feel whenever I want to take a bite of something. I am starting another round tomorrow. I am blowing up. I hate loading. I pray that the HCG will work. My usual fear when loading for another round. I learned a lot this last p3. Nuts are not my friend. period. nuts have starch. period. so, another round and i will do well.

i hate loading. tomorrow is injection 1 . anther load day. may i always remember this awful miserable feeling.

so that is how normal people do it

yesterday went fine. I was not perfect. did not gain anything. i did have a bite of bread and a taste of some pizza. just did not have a whole loaf and everthing else in sight. today is much easier not working in the kitchen and being stressed. had some eggs and sausage for breakfast and going out to dinner tonite. hopefully will have a nice salad and a nice dinner. so normal people just have meals. they don't eat all day. they can stop. it is the calories that count. however, i feel that the calories that you eat have certain reactions that make you feel satisfied or make you want to eat more.