Thank God for Steak Days

so , the steak day saved me once again. I had bites of cheese during work, and then a steak for dinner around 9. Cheese bites consisted of gorgonzola, mozzarella and a bite of goat. then steak with a pat of butter on it. It resulted in a 4.2 # loss.

I felt really terrible the other night after i was out of control. I am on a good track now. Feeling much more in control. I read other blogs and learn from them and have learned from my mistakes.

today I started out with 3/4 cup of Strauss yogurt with 2 drops of Stevia and some vanilla. also, I added about 1 oz of roasted chicken for breakfast.

I have learned that I need to eat meals. I have to control the hunger so not to get out of control. the high fat atkins does not work, however, the no starch, no sugar does work. Bread sets me out of control and heads down to the road of destruction. sugar gives me nightmares and makes my brain crazy like a drug. I know I need supplements. just can't seem to make it to the health store. lazy or cheap? I don't like taking pills all day... makes me feel old.

Hoping to have some chicken and salad for lunch. and some salmon for dinner. I will nibble on cheese for a nervous anxious snack, like i always do. Lets see how it all works out.

I finally get it

It has been over a year on the HCG diet. I am about to start another round to get to my final goal and stay there. I have lost (depending on what day it is) over 65 pounds. Yesterday I had a bad day. I ate like I was loading thinking that my HCG was going to be here any day. i was just thinking that in the past, I ate like I was loading everyday of my life. EVERYDAY! so, here we are at another steak day. I won't get the HCG until the 6th of march. So, I have to cool it until then. I have to remember how awful I felt going to bed last night. They way I have felt everyday before HCG. I can not live like that. I already feel better. Today I will eat one steak with fat and that is it. I will not feel like that again unless I am loading on HCG. I need to lose 15 total pounds. I finally get that I can not eat like I am loading on any day unless I have the HCG.

I can not let myself feel like that again.